Monday, February 21, 2011

I never want to look back and think ‘what if’. You only get one chance at life and the most important thing is for me to know that I have given it everything, fulfilled my potential and been the best that I can be.                                                     - Chrissie Wellington 
 I can say honestly and clearly that I have never been 100% committed to losing weight. Not once, not ever. Not even when I lost all the weight a few years back. I've said again and again I am committed to this one thing, and have never truly given it 100%. Even in weeks when I lost 5 pounds, I still took it easy some days, giving myself a pass when I didn't own up to letdowns or mistakes.

One of the most helpful things is knowing I'm not doing it alone; I have Weight Watchers, I have Rachelle, and I have you. Whether the You is someone I know (John Young, K, Wheelerworksers, etc) or someone I don't, it doesn't really matter. You're here and that helps me to be reminded I'm not in this alone. There's someone to report to, someone to lean on, and someone celebrate with.

I missed my meeting on Friday; I was working pretty hard to be able to enjoy the long weekend. But I could have made time and gone. I might not have lost any weight, and maybe that's why I didn't make it a priority. It's something I have to do, because even facing up to failure is a way to succeed.

When I think about what Chrissie said above, I think I don't want to be sitting here 4 years or even 2 years from now and have to say I didn't commit, I didn't fulfill my potential to be healthier, to be stronger, to be faster. Because as I'm doing that very thing right, it sucks.


  1. Hey Ben. You are definitely not alone. I think it is so tough to stick to eating goals when we are surround by people who don't have those same goals, and a society who has a warped idea of what healthy eating is. Or even desire to really eat healthy and manage weight. So challenging for me anyway.

    That Chrissie quote rocks btw, I have seen it before and had forgotten it. Thanks for the reminder.

  2. Ben,

    What did it for me about 4 years ago was my wife looking me in the face and saying, "Do you want to be alive in 5 years to be here for Owen?"

    And I said, "YES". That got me to the Dr. for my sleep study, the CPAP, and now I am 30 lbs lighter. And I see no reason to stop now.

    You gotta do it for Rachelle but most importantly, for yourself.

    You know I'll be there with you!

  3. Mandy - That's so true. Especially once you've trained your body to accept eating that way (like I totally don't get sick if I eat 2 Big Mac's for a meal), it's hard to untrain it from expecting that.

    John - Dude, you are awesome. Your wife is right, you are right. And I'm glad to have a compadre like yourself. Was great to see you this weekend.